Today hasn’t been a good day.
At the same time, it’s been a great day!
First of all, this morning I went to a successful business meeting and as a result, picked up £620 of sponsorship.
I’ve also been to work at Nuclear Races which I love.
I should be flying, but I’m not. I’ve been suffering from anxiety for the last 4 days and today it was at its peak with my heart feeling like it was fighting its way out of my chest.
I’m usually very good at getting a handle on it, using Andy Pudicombe‘s (Founder of Headspace) method of observing anxiety instead of getting absorbed into it, but today I just couldn’t help but get involved.
Anxiety does have this little habit of creeping up on me every now and again and hitting hard. I am an ‘all or nothing’ girl and I sometimes get wrapped up in doing too much.
I’ve had to make sacrifices this week and that meant sacrificing sleep, exercise and eating well. Ha! These 3 things are the 3 most important factors that keep me, and any human being healthy. And I chose to not do any of them in return for work, laptop, website, fundraising, work, work, laptop and website.
Going to bed at 1am for 3 nights on the trot, then getting up at
I get asked a lot about how I manage my life, with 2 jobs, training, fundraising, marketing and all the other little bits I do. And not forgetting just general living and dare I say it……. relaxing?
As I mentioned before, I am all or nothing, so when I decide to do something, I throw myself in and that means sometimes neglecting other things. That’s probably why I am good at endurance events.
I’ve had to sacrifice a lot this week in order to get some important jobs done for my fundraising campaign. My friends tell me I’m silly for making these sacrifices and I wouldn’t recommend it, but sometimes I just have to ‘do more in 24.’
And I have missed (ignored) loads of phone calls from friends which I know isn’t good.
The result? I’ve (almost) finished my website and secured £620 for my Great British Rowing challenge, along with some other good news to be announced another day.
Altogether, despite feeling like a wreck, I do feel relieved to be making progress on my ‘career‘ as an ocean rower.
Now what I need to do is master the art of balance. And I don’t mean standing on one leg. I am currently living my life like a HIIT training session; going hard and taking little rest. I should be approaching it like I approach my endurance events, steady, consistent and controlled. That person would surely win the race over the crazy HIIT person?